This week is going to be a big one. Physically and emotionally…
On Thursday, I am going to NYC for an appointment with another retina specialist. This will be the 3rd opinion I’ve gotten in the past two years on my retinopathy. Unfortunately, there is some traction on my left retina (after a vitrectomy last year, LOTS of laser, and avastin injections). I am anxious about this appointment because I fear that the result may be more surgery. Or worse, that nothing can be done. This is my good eye I am working on, my right one had a bad detachment 2 years ago, and it doesn’t function well on its own.
I’m also going to be asking this retina specialist about a second baby. I think that I have come to the conclusion that even if he says there’s no reason for me not to get pregnant again, I may opt for other means to having baby #2. I admit I am not in the best place emotionally right now, and I know that I need a lot of cash in my emotional bank to get me through a diabetic pregnancy. With baby #1 going to preschool in the fall, getting potty trained (another challenge in iteself!), working full time, AND taking care of myself, I think I may be stretching myself too thin.
So this appointment is a big deal. I am hoping it will give me an idea of what the next year will mean for me. Or not, so I can know and move on.